Red lego shapes

Mornings bring with them

This numb, heavy weight

Which presses hard down

Against our cold, empty shapes.

And that very next day

Never seems to come

Because the evening before us

Is too dark to move on.

He or she let you down,

He or she was not the one;

He or she does not own you

Or anyone you want to become.

You were more than a person

Before they came into your life

And you are still that and more,

Only stronger, with more insight.

For a lover does not define you,

Not the reason you exist;

You belong to yourself and others,

You are someone else’s kiss.

You are the reason for another

To smile through the day;

You will inspire more than tears

When this darkness fades away,

You are the moment people wait for

And someone is waiting for you;

But you’ll never know this

Until your eyes focus to

Another world, another place

Another time to live in,

Where you move closer to those 

Who give your life meaning,

So brutalise the past,

But remember what it teaches;

Because it cannot hold you back

From another world you wish to reach.

Eyes up and mind up

And imagine a new start;

For these are the instructions

To rebuild a broken heart

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Red days

Scattered

And breaking,

And moving,

And shaking.

This is

The way

Your words

Always make me.

Cut up

And stuck;

Removed;

Feeling lost.

Bleeding

All meaning;

And leaving me

Screaming

Out into

the space

Which once 

Held your face,

But it is gone; all is gone.

As I’ve never been happy

When I am right and you are wrong.

Your hand in mine

Why don’t we just sit

Forever in this memory;

Hands touch and fit

In a shared territory.

Then a smile breaks

And you turn into

The most open and honest

Version of you. 

And the sun doesn’t set

On these kind of days,

In my mind etched,

Never to fade away.

Smiles

To be happy

Is to feel

Nothing below

A smile;

Just for a little while.

For happiness

Needs devastation

To exist and to feel

Like something,

Anything at all.

Because all and everything

Is all I need –

And I need you.

For a moment,

You.

And when I can’t have you

I need you more

And more

And more;

And I’ll keep saying it

Until my words soak up

the darkness between stars.

For you make me

Happy-sad

And stretched out and strange

With each wordless moment

You spend

Waiting

For me to make you happy

Again;

To push your cheeks

Into a reddish blush

And leave you

with everything

Above a smile.

Daylight savings

It’s an hour past midnight

And I already know

The morning will be heavy,

The weak wintery glow,

Which doesn’t feel like day

And doesn’t feel like night;

Just a sleepy sheet of grey

Keeping the sun out of sight.

And yes, tomorrow always hurts

When the day does not love you;

For the night never leaves

When the sun is all you look to.

Timeless

This half habit-living

Is stopping me thinking

And ghost-stepping on air

For stairs that aren’t there

And looking for things

Already in my hand

Or in front of my eyes

Just as I had planned.

Life makes us stupid;

And we push on blind,

Through each swollen minute

Which brushes the mind.

Will I remember you tomorrow?

Will you stain my history?

Because time keeps darkening

The memories you give to me.

The love we left behind

These days, 

We are work-rushed

And busy and angry

And afraid to be sitting

For more than a moment.

For why should we be missing?

In our friendships and love

And accept that time moves

Sorely past us.

Tiredly breathing against

The emptiness of old words

For life they once had 

swells beneath, unheard;

In this little space

Which used to exist,

Where smiles form

At the softness of a kiss.

Nobody’s watching

These colour-cut shapes

Reveal the pain;

So just think slow,

It’ll come back again.

And when it finally does

You won’t remember us.

So just carry on dancing

Like nobody’s watching.

Everytime you wake

I fade away

And it feels worse

Each passing day.

And this is where we sit

to be alone

She takes all eyes

away from you

Because she’s the only one dancing,

And she’s only just starting.

Find yourself,

Discarded on the shelf, 

Wanting to dance like her

Because she moves for just herself

And lives for no-one else, 

Like nobody’s watching; 

but everyone’s watching

Her.

Grenfell

It burns and burns

With a plastic smell

But the roars are ignored,

Unhearing the yells

Of those who lost 

At the shake of a hand

The assurance of life

Or a safety plan,

Or sprinkling ceilings

Or wider halls

Or the gift of time

To save them all.

May they be remembered,

May they be restored,

For the ash won’t settle

Until the rules are redrawn.

Brexit

Can you feel it beneath you?

That gentle sway?

As the rope is cut

And we drift away

And find ourselves,

All drenched with blue,

Suspicously watching

The friend next to you.

They lied to us

About the future we need;

They played a game

To make us leave.